Ever since I grew up, I was of the opinion that I am nothing without my friends. They made me happy, sad, celebrate and enjoy the life. But, the year 2010 started with a sad note, I started to live alone in Gurgaon (NCR), the Las Vegas of India, doing an intern in a renowned R & D unit in the power back-up sector. Though I had waited for this kind of work for few years, there is some emptiness, dullness and slack in this life. Did you also face these kinds of dull moments in your life?
No doubt, History has been a witness to the loneliness of great men, who were geniuses. Almost every Genius has a need for being alone. There are long moments of loneliness for men in politics, research, business and sports. Loneliness was fundamental for the scientists who made great inventions and discoveries. There are some who prefer the lonely isolated road, by choice. It's their success formula which makes them independent to take tough decisions either in the area of politics or business.
But, I am not one of those kinds, I didn’t choose loneliness, but I am appended to it. There are no friends except a couple of acquaintances in this great city. This loneliness is haunting me and ultimately self threatening. I am unable to make new friends in this fairy land where everyone are running after money and luxuries and most importantly, they are selfish. So, in order to protect myself from the prince of darkness, going by the saying, “Idle brain is the Devil’s Advocate,” I stopped to think about myself. This made me to think about the society and the surroundings, from this thinking cropped the idea of my blogging. It had become a media for letting off my loneliness and communicating my thoughts to the friends worldwide. Social networking has not helped as it is a remote contact.
Books, one of my belongings ever since I grew up, came to my rescue when writing had become superfluous. A new thing that’s been added to my belongings is my laptop, which is a reserve of knowledge, documentaries of NatGeo, Discovery and BBC. So, I created a new world for myself in which I am the only citizen. But, how long does this world of mine survive? Is it worth the attention and importance I am showering on it? How long can I survive without walking into oblivion? Can I accustom myself to this new world and live happily ever after?
What is the need of money, power and luxuries if one is alone? Can one admire those unless they are shared and whom do you tell that you are happy with them? Some of us go to distant lands not only to earn money, name and fame, but to earn a tag of being in the dream land. Can they be happy without anyone to share their happiness? I yearn it be a ‘No,’ to satisfy my ego. I know that some lone crusaders have turned loneliness into their comfortable companion, but can I turn it into a long-lasting companion?
Only time has the answers for the above questions that I had put to myself. If you don’t want to be lonely, don’t guard yourself too closely and make acquaintances as you advance in your life, otherwise you would soon find yourself alone. Don’t love someone to such an extent that it makes you impotent to live with out them. Instead, give birth to yourself to know what you are capable of. The most important product of one’s effort is one’s own personality. Also you would have no rivals if you fall in love with yourself. Remember that at some point in life; almost everyone could face this issue of loneliness.
So, I live according to the quote by the Nobel Laureate Rabindranath Tagore,”If no one is willing to walk with you, walk alone,” singing
“I walk on lonely road, the lonely one that I had never known, don’t know where it goes, but it’s only me and I walk alone….”
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I was in the same situation some time back and that was an awesome experience one should get in one's life time... I went through the same kind of pain that you are having now.. But, I ultimately came to know that it is something required for everybody to live alone. All the best...
ReplyDeleteEveryone comes through this stage at one point of their lives.. So its time we learn to enjoy the lonely hours by engaging in music, books etc.. In this fast moving world, we hardly get the time for introspecting ourselves.. So enjoy ur loneliness buddy :-)
ReplyDeleteHey Kalam...I think im in the same situation you are in...really scared of it...dont feel like accepting it...so trying to feel comfortable with people im not really comfortable to stay with....I know thats not right..but dont know what to do??
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